Thank you BBW Models

For including "BBW" in your name. It makes it so much easier to add you to my "hidden models" list. One of the few features that puts MFC above the other cam sites.


Ugh, I can't believe it's been over a month since I last wrote on this blog. Time goes by way too way too quick sometimes. I feel another thing that was holding me back was that I wasn't being as mean as I want to be. For some reason I was editing the way I addressed certain issues and avoiding the expletives. That and no one really reads this shit, haha.

Nonetheless, I'll try and make the time between my entries that much shorter and not worry about the length and professionalism as much.

Facebook Is Depressing

I'm not much into Facebook. I made one a few years ago at the urging of some of the few remaining friends I had. I only sign on about once a week to check for messages and then promptly sign off when I see I don't have many or any.

Today I chose to actually spend some time on the site and browse through the "Suggested Friends" area (or whatever it's called). I came across a few things that instantly made me hate life a little more.

1.) A lot of the hot girls from high school are now married to old men. From just the small sample of hot girls I looked at, I can tell you that a good portion of them were either in a relationship or married to some old man. This shouldn't really bother me, considering I had no chance with them in the first place, however, this says something about the true nature of these girls. They just want their well-established, older, sugar-daddy. The shallow nature of the sexes goes both ways, ladies.

2.) Everyone seems to be having such a good time. Sure, they might be miserable inside, but they are at least living some sort of existence. They have all been living some sort of life with some sort of progression while mine has remained stagnant and unchanging.

3.) Idiots who got into good schools. I can't tell you how much this made me upset. People who weren't in the advanced placement courses with me, who didn't try in high school and somehow made it into prestigious schools. I'm sure some of them were legacy admissions (or those other bullshit ways that people get into universities without trying), but I'm sure some of them got in through the luck of the draw. Two bimbos I came across made me the most upset. I know one of the girl's SAT scores and the fact that she got into the #3 state school here in  CA despite that less-than-middling score made me want to punch someone in the face.


I think I will be staying off Facebook for awhile.

So This Is What It's Come To...

Today I will endure the toughest and most scrutinizing  interview for a job. The employer is going to be as selective as Stanford, Harvard and Yale in their acceptance rate. What is this job you ask? Some coveted intern position at a law firm? A minor role in a major motion picture?

No.

Instead I will be fighting for a job as a cashier at a Target store for a pathetic $8/hour. Also known as California State's minimum wage. It's understandable though.With so many people unemployed, potential employer's inboxes are filled to the brim with people vying for a job. Any job. The other problem is that the usual hiring-pool for such a job would normally be composed of high school students, high school dropouts and the other usual suspects who look for low-end work. Unfortunately, people with Bachelors, Masters and Doctorate degrees have joined the menial-job market. As can be seen in this video about the "99ers" (people who have used up all 99 weeks of unemployment benefits and remain unemployed), even these people with advanced degrees are forced to stoop so low in an effort to find any source of income.

Much like the people in the video, I am ready to accept any job that comes at me. I really hate that I am forced to be nostalgic for the days when I was making $10 an hour...over a decade ago and in high school.

Upcoming Blogs

I have not really worked up the will to write-up an entire blog yet so I'm going to list some of the blogs I plan to write in the future:

• Why Non-Nude Cam Models Are No Better Than Beggars
• The Different Types of Beggars on MyFreeCams
• Stupid Person Arguments
• The Various Ways I Have Been "Cock-Blocked" by Life (Figuratively).
• History's Unlucky Seconds
• Recurring Dreams
• A Series on Common Mistakes by New MyFreeCams Models.

I usually come up with ideas while in the shower or when I'm already in bed. When that happens, I never manage to go somewhere to write these ideas down. I have had long rants in my head about all of these topics and have never written them down. This is upsetting since I'm sure some mental gems have escaped into the ether, never to be retrieved. Who knows, perhaps they will return to me in time or during the writing of it's respective blog entry.

This Blog's Intent

For the past 9 years I have lived in a self-imposed virtual prison of my own making. My life was ruined shortly after high school by events that I may or may not eventually document on here. Since that time, I have been unable to pick up the pieces. 


Mostly, I will be writing about whatever is on my mind for the day. Living a solitary existence has not allowed me to share my thoughts with many people and I just can't help but feel I have let some great insights of mine go unheard. Hopefully this blog will help remedy that.